Sunday, June 23, 2013

Bumping into HIM



June 22, 2013

Farmers Markets nearly always lift my spirits. Fresh bouquets, colorful fruits and vegetables, a local musician sings and plays guitar in the midst of the crowds of customers who are not particularly polite in getting out of the way of the lady on crutches. I must look forgiving since a woman crossed the busy street, dodging cars, to ask me for some cash, whatever I can spare, to get she and her daughter something to eat since they just took a bus from Chicago and are hungry. I pulled what little cash I had in my coin purse without hesitation. As I pushed the red clasp closed, a woman passed by and made a suggestion that the requester is on her way to buy drugs or alcohol. My view is if I am willing to give it; whether a protein bar, apple, jar of tea or a few bills, I am obligated to “let it go” and consider it a gift. I don’t honestly care what he/she chooses to spend it on. If I judge them then I am probably judged in-kind.

A lot of family gatherings happened this weekend. Some people, related by marriage, whom I have not seen in several years. The kids are stretching out and they were little and now talking about college options. With all of the power outages, the shower and washer/dryer are in constant use. It is incredulous to imagine over 530,000 people without power!

My sister was out on the streets, looking at all of the damage in the South Minneapolis neighborhood and happened to run into one of my old and significant beaus from years past. He didn’t register until she had already gone by and then shared the story with me much later. I am surprised to discover he is in town and noticed how I reacted. Amusement snuck into trepidation then back to humor at myself. I have no interest in being together with this man and certainly have no Cinderella complex saga going on any longer. I have grown up (and out) and moved on from the wonder of infatuation. Bumping into the memory of him is funny. Dated when I was 21 for two years, then again when I was 37 and on my way out of the country. A whirlwind second time made me painfully aware that he wasn’t that into me.

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