April 17, 2013
I awoke with a start as
someone stomped on a cat and it screamed in defiance and surprise. “Tolerance”
was the first word that came to mind as I glanced at my puffy eyes and
hurricane hairdo, pulled on yesterday’s jeans, fresh long-sleeved shirt and crumpled
socks to make my way down the hall, pad down the carpeted stairs and out the
front door to toss the horses their breakfast. Midnight wanted the delectable
grain from the bottom of the wheel barrel which I feed him directly from my bare
outstretched hand. His soft whispery breath graced my palm and I look into his
deep eyes and wondered what miraculous ideas he has for saving the planet, if
any. I’m certain, if given the opportunity, the beasts of the world could share
grandiose and innovative plans! I believe it is time to ask the questions and
listen for the response.
As luck would have it, the
wind died and I made my way around the round pen in the crispy morning in awe
of the barren beauty. Stark spindly trees line the perimeter of the cold fence
and bluebird sky kisses the brown trodden grasses. The self-incriminating
emotions of yesterday are in the past, rejection emails and arduous
applications brought about uncompromising impudent words. Audacity is imprisonment
that turns me outward with words.
What I am yearning for is a
bit more stability, accepting productivity as more than a four letter word and
a comfort level about the future. Packing up once again for several days living
out of a bag makes me crabby and wrestling with my irresponsible pal, Unkept. My
friend, “L” whom I had not seen for quite some time told me that her husband
and she were talking about me prior to our getting reacquainted. Randy
remembers I was forever late and …wrinkled. I glance down and discover I am
still wrinkled in more ways than one. An iron has never been a favored nor
forgiving companion. The other wrinkles I cannot do anything about unless I
succumb to the Botox doctor. Sigh.
Rescheduled the CT scan and
have an informal interview tomorrow. I plan on doing my own lazer surgery
tonight so the outcome will be both phenomenal and favorable. What do you
think?
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