Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Deciding Not To Decide

March 4, 2014

I can’t decide whether to get a yummy double vanilla latte, a steamy espresso, almond croissant, poppy seed muffin, dark chocolate cake, or several goodies. The indecision is disconcerting, frustrating, not to mention creates impatience in the line behind me at Dunn Brothers.

So frequently, the process of choosing sets me into a frenzy. I normally jump into the great dark abyss, not completely comprehending what outcome is expected (aside from too much sugar.) In times of inconsistent poor results, I pull back and then can’t even determine what I am hankering for at the coffee shop. A full blown tantrum may be effective when I was three (or fourteen) but now, at 50 something (most days I cannot recall what age I am,)it isn’t so charming.

Two little stinkers showed up for Story Time this morning. One precocious yellow-haired shout-it-out two years old as of October, stuck with the stories about gardens and bugs but the other dull brown-topped a bit younger girl, roamed around the table, screamed at the computer lab to "turn it on," threw crayons, and "didn’t wanna hear the story." Her primitive little brain wasn’t the least bit interested in learning about dirt, creatures of the garden, watering plants, or even looking at the colorful pictures.We colored shapes for most of the Gardening Story Time.

If I were two, I might be able to choose what flavor coffee drink I want right now. In the moment, I let the person behind me decide, so I pay for his drink too. He is delighted in my irritation around indecision. Don’t count on it happening tomorrow.

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